holding back n being held back was equally tormenting, eating me up inside. desperate to let go of the unveiled truth but draining defenses built up instinctively. losing balance, relaxation was no more an option. suppressed emotions piled up undelivered, tension forming unseen barrier. unbreakable ice stood tall, visible yet unreachable. everything as a trigger; every thought bring tears, so much that i dislike myself. no, no, hardwork shall not go to waste! fragile is Not weak.