Tergiversation.

she was more than relieved to see his smile under such difficult situation. she had set out to pay her due, but she can't pull no miracle out of thin air. each day, every day, he became more n more dependable. out of motivation, out of encouragement she had not known. day after day, he grew faster than she thought possible. sometimes, she felt like she was the child instead, staying stagnant in one spot, waiting for an invisible tide to push her around. a tide that never seemed to come. cowered in fear, she shamelessly seek him for relief.

別人のような。