费玉清

had been listening to his latest album. released on June 13, 2007. not that he had ever been my favorite idol or artist, but his songs never failed to soothes me. it felt comfortable listening to it, especially at night. hehe.

some backgrounds on fei:
- name: 張彥亭
- born: July 17, 1955
- origin: Taiwan
- genre: Chinese Ballad

たつかし ..

200 Pounds Beauty 미녀는 괴로워 (2006)

"미녀는 괴로워" (Mi-nyeo-neun Goi-ro-wa) is a manga (Japanese comic, 漫画, マンガ) by suzuki yumiko (鈴木由美子). and now filmed into a Korean movie. to me, it is lengthier than required, but the ending makes it worth the waiting. it surprised me without the typical "happily ever after" or "all separated/dead" ending for Korea movies . but in a good way, which makes it a lot more believable.

Hanna is the famous Korean pop singer. she suffers from having extremely poor self-esteem, as she has been ignored because of her appearance. at last, she makes the decision of a lifetime to have full-body plastic surgery.
but one thing that i don't quite agree, and do not think it is as funny as the other movie viewers, is how the "fat and ugly" are looked and laughed at. we are all human, who and what makes the slim ones prior and better than the fat ones? didn't we always say that we must not judge by appearances? isn't that contradiction? aren't we being inconsistent of what we say and do? and shooting ourselves in the foot?

in my opinion, the movie would be much meaningful if the "fat and ugly" succeeded in her original form. imagine the strength it will give them, instead of causing them to have even less confidence in themselves. (and encourage them to go for plastic surgery? *sweat*) we have enough despise for the "fat and ugly" in the society today. it is time to reevaluate and measure the depth of our thinking.

Savor.

felt like i had been in a rpg (Role Playing Game) all this while. but instead of playing and pretending that i am the character inside, i Am actually the character itself. and while in games, we can choose to play first-person (fps) or third-person shooter (tps), i can only be the first-person shooter in my case. and Without "god mode" if you are wondering.

i can "die" anytime. well .. not "dying" in real life kinda way of course, but more like "dying" in the subject, which means failing it. (geez .. i even felt my spine tingled by typing "the f word" - excuse you, not the bad f word if you are even thinking in that direction ..)

this whole semester had been a roller coaster ride for me. the nerve-wreaking pressure that i never feared and felt as much had took over me for the past few months. especially the recent month. friends around me though i was exaggerating it. but i sure as hell am not. those that took the same subject felt it, but to what extend that i do not know.

had been missing sleep, waking up in the middle of the night unable to return to sleep, and waking up earlier than ever for continuous days. it felt terrible, like i was never resting all this time. the sleeps meant nothing, as i still felt as tired.

hope i can say that i had reach a safe-base, for me to reload my weapons and restore my health bar before i am out in the field killing and trying to survive at the same time again. i really, really hoped and wanted to say i had live-through the first part of my fyp (final year project). another semester of continuous fyp-life may be coming soon but let it worry and occupy me by then. i want to savor this moment. this fear, this pressure that i felt for the past month, let me at least savor the aftertaste for now.

for i do not wish to rush myself into the field again and have death staring back at me without me ever feeling glad that i was alive ..

"to endure what IS, we must remember what WAS, and dream of things as they will one day BE"

张栋梁

had been introduced and shared nicholas' new album "王子" lately. by a friend of mine - chuan. thanks chuan~ :) there are some songs i found nice within the album. 北极星的眼泪, 幸福的理由, 陌路. you who enjoy soft mandarin musics and meaningful lyrics should catch the album too. released on June 01, 2007.