Gratitude.

being shown Appreciations by 2 persons 2 days in a row is definitely the best reward one could get. just as a simple "thank you" never failed to lighten my day.

she was thankful for me always being there to support her, n to keep her company. over the years, -bun- n i has been each other's best emotional support, as we watch out for each other.

he was thankful for me paying him a visit before his took off to Australia. meeting him is important to me, as he is the very best Mentor that guide me through difficult times. he is the one showing me a living example of the power of perspectives.

my past relationship had cause me to have sorta phobia being shown inappreciativeness. having the table turned too much too often, my mind started playing tricks on me, so intense that i actually doubted myself. suffering from the aftermath, i'm still putting effort in allowing the past to pass me by, quitting the thought of everyone, too, doubt me like he did.

i guess that's how experience mold us .. not to mention, in a difficult way ..

いい人はなる！

The Phantom of the Opera (2004)

a very enchanting n powerful musical !! the plot is simple -- a triangle love story. she does seemed kinda blurred being toyed between the 2 men. but overall, it was a Sensational drive. the theater, for one thing, is absolutely fabulous !! the music, don't even get me started, reached so deep into you that it thrills you !! can't stop listening to its Soundtrack ever since, letting it arouses me n bringing me back to the scenes !!

yuki (ゆき、雪)..

he used to be able to curl up nicely on my lap. but not anymore, the most he can do now, is lean or snuggle against me. a big boy now !! :D

Gaming: Cabal

some more screen shots of the game i'm currently playing. scroll down for more links !!

Magic Chocolate.

what happens when you have friends who Stressed over assignments n exams, especially during this exam's peak season ??

help them study ?? no .. help them complete the assignments ?? no .. encourage them with words ?? maybe, but no words are ever powerful enough .. that left Chocolate the only choice ..

Chocolate affect the brain by causing the release of certain neurotransmitters (molecules that transmit signals between neurons). The amounts of particular neurotransmitters can have a great impact on our mood.

Happy neurotransmitters (such as endorphins) can help to reduce stress and lead to feelings of pleasure and happiness.

Chocolate affects the levels of endorphins in the brain. Eating chocolate increases the levels of endorphins released into the brain. It works to lessen pain and decrease stress.

Another common neurotransmitter affected by chocolate is serotonin. Serotonin is known as an anti-depressant.

Another unique neurotransmitters released by chocolate is phenylethylamine. It causes changes in blood pressure and blood-sugar levels leading to feelings of excitement and alertness. It increase mood and decrease depression, but it does not result in addiction.

Phenylethylamine is also called the "love drug" because it causes your pulse rate to quicken, resulting in a similar feeling to when someone is in love.

Mentor.

meeting him after such a long time has been inspiring. he is my consultant, my Mentor. someone who links with my soul n emotions, someone who freed me from my emotional baggages that was built from stress. someone who looks beyond my marks n grades. someone who appreciate me for who i am.

with his guidance, i am now able to thank god for the emotional experienced that i'd gone through, for the struggles that molded who i am today. with his lead, i was given the chance to learn to "see" what is around me n appreciate them. he was, indeed, sent by god ..

with best regards, may his new Adventure in Australia be rewarding, n most importantly, Fun !!

楽しいよ！

The Water Horse: Legend of the Deep (2007)

back in the time of World War II, the water horse is a magical creature, a sea spirit that exists only one at a time. with splendid view, the dive into the sea is a magnificent adventure !! being a huge showoff, the creature is more than eager to take his little friend for a dive. it was such a beautiful n touching friendship, which makes the separation very heart-breaking as well. worth a catch if you're a Fantasy lover.

kitty..

sadly, this drowsy little fellow is Blind. not being able to see makes it rather alert, not jumpy though. putting the food in front of it does make it sniffed at it, n started munching. our guess was the eyes were infected by bacteria or sort .. poor thing ..

矛盾.

与男生、女生都聊了之后，发现双方的看法、想法真的差距很大。

多数男生认为把女生追到手后就代表着胜利、代表事情告一段落。但往往没想到女生的情绪每一分钟都在变，而成功得到女生的心，关键其实就在这。

而女生总盼望着男友会像追自己的时候那么细心地对待自己。一旦被疏忽，就会认为男友不再爱自己了，又或者认为自己让他觉得闷，慢慢失去信心。

谈感情，实在有太多太多的矛盾。没人对、也没人错。虽然话说“只需要明白对方的需求”，但也从来不是一件容易的事…

皆さんがんばって !!

Messenger Plus

was introduced by -vivi- the Extension to Windows Live Messenger, namely Messenger Plus! Live. it is just a simple plug-in or add on. compatible with WLM 8.0 n 9.0.

a fun n cool add on !! with sounds n features n colors n .. well, i haven't explored its functions thoroughly yet .. why don't you go on n try it out yourself ??

Gaming: Cabal

dancing has always been entertaining in cabal. characters can be seen dancing in town, or even among mobs (monsters), as long as they don't chase you around ..

星座核心特质的人格

在 -姐妹- 杂志（四月号）里看到了以下的星座解说。虽然蛮极端，而且还是以“病状”的发式来解释！但…是还蛮精彩的，看看也无妨，呵呵！:p

-- 白羊座
-- 暴发型人格
白羊座的火热、急性子、没耐性以及即已厌倦的特性很容易造成暴发型人格障碍。白羊座一般都能表现出绅士、很淑女的一面，但是内在的“暴力”倾向一旦被激发，可能就不一样了。所以一个暴力倾向很“严重”的白羊座，你最好离他/她远一点哦！

The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian (2008)

definitely a recommendation for Fantasy lovers !! a breath catching ride worth taking. it was disturbing when the film started. but as Narnia is brought back to life, things started to get interesting (n beautiful). as if the gloominess was being removed by layers. the film started out portraying the foolishness of Prince Caspian n King Peter (the eldest of the foursome) in leading the Narnians to war, against the Telmarians, losing many of their army to their pride. finally joining strength, with King Edmund (the second King in the foursome) 's wisdom, they won the war. Aslan (the lion) did not make much appearance in this film. but for a short appearance, it has been simply Grand n mesmerizing.

kitty..

"fooood ??"

meet this little fellow at the coffee shop. i wonder if i had saw it before ?? i think i did .. :D

Evolution.

sometimes it amuses me with the blogger buddies "evolution" that presents itself along time.i'd started blogging since May last year, making it almost a year's consistent efforts. some buddies were lost ("lost" as in never heard of again), some just stop exchanging comments like we used to be keen of. but fortunately, new buddies were also met. :) "One year is what it takes to show a person's Real Colour", is one of my common phrases. after many "tries", it turned out to be freakishly true in all relationships (friends, lovers, etc.). to be fair, take 1 year to observe a person before judging them. well, at least that's what i'm doing ..

裁判の前に、観察するね ..

lambir hills national park..

a 30 minutes drive from Miri town, this national park is a hiking ground, with waterfalls along the way. quite a pity that we didn't get to explore the park, due to lack of preparation. am gonna conquer it the next time i'm there !! :D

Tag: 个人资料

被 -菁菁- 点名要完成以下好多、好多的个人资料！嘿嘿，可难不倒我。

1. Starting time: 1255
2. Name: levian
3. Sisters: 1
4. Brothers: none
5. Shoe size: 4
6. Height: roughly 153cm .. i think.
   
7. Where do you live: Malaysia
8. Favorite drinks: chocolate.
9. Favorite breakfast: Laksa !!
   
10. Have you ever been on a plane: yup, Aerophobia though.
    

Mummy.

though i rarely speak of my mum (mostly my Sister), it's doesn't mean that our relationship ain't good. like most, there's this visible gap thingy between us (not that it even deserved to be an excuse to stop us from fighting like kids). *chuckles*

as i grew older, she turned out to be one of my siblings rather than my mum, n we definitely fought like one. meaning "one minute we totally get on each other's nerves; another minute it's like nothing happens", which is Very Cool!

clashes n disagreements happen all the time (in fact, no matter who you're with), but never a reason to withdraw our heart or Love from each other. don't you agree ??

母の日おめでとう！

kitty..

a very friendly fellow i met at one of the cafe. being pregnant doesn't make her edgy at all !! :)

What Happens in Vegas (2008)

a perfect romance !! it was funny n heart-warming at the same time. definitely an emotional adventure worth riding on. he got fired for always giving up before finishing anything, she got dumped for being way too serious in relationship. they ended up meeting each other in Vegas n waking up married. they were forced, at first, to make the marriage work. n really fell for each other.

Pre-eclampsia.

no matter how strong a person she is, losing her child to a medical disorder is bound to break her.

Pre-eclampsia starts when the organ (placenta) that joins mum n baby doesn't grow as it should. the baby may not get enough blood to grow properly. harmful chemicals from the placenta can get back into mum's bloodstream and cause high blood pressure. baby may also need to be born earlier.

note: having pre-eclampsia once doesn't mean mum will get it again. normal pregnancy may occur for the next pregnancy.

it was too much a heart-breaking news even to me, who haven't got the chance to meet the baby girl (4th-7th May 2008) who was in ICU since the very first day she was born. she joined us merely for 4 days n left in such a hurry. imagine the heartache n emotional pain her mum have to live through. *condolences*

安らかに眠りたまえ ..

轻松生活.

Kuchiki Byakuya 朽木白哉

yuki (ゆき、雪)..

distracted by a clicking sound, usually a sound he made while hunting birds. head out moments later to find him Devouring the bird !! the blood was still gushing, but can't help feeling proud of my little Punk's hunt .. ;)

Girls/Guys Facts

saw the statements from -flora- 's blog. interesting facts that might give you, n you, some guidelines .. ;)

GIRL Facts:

(1) When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand.
(2) When she wants a hug, she will just stand there.
(3) When you break a girls heart, she still feels it when running into each other 3 years later.
(4) When a girl is quiet, millions of things run through her mind.
(5) When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
(6) When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
(7) When a girl answers “I’m fine,” after a few seconds, she is Not at all fine.
(8) When a girl cries she wants you to hold her close and tell her everything is going to be OK.
(9) When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games.
(10) When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
(11) When a girl says she can’t live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
(12) When a girl says “I miss you”, no one in this world can miss you more than that.
(13) When a girl is mean to you after break-up, she wants you back, but she’s scared she’ll get hurt and knows you’re gone forever.

Bleach ブリーチ

Respect.

gave myself quite a shock when i uncontrollably bud into their business. an action, which within my principles, believe i shouldn't do. though related, i should have no say between them. the reason that triggered n ignited my sense of justice, is because we share the same parents. he has no right, especially in position, to critique them. they are the elders, in fact even for the same age group, respects are essential.

as i felt my blood gushing through my veins rapidly, i knew he was as startled as i am. surprised at i, who usually kept my mouth shut, finally voiced out. soon after, he apologized to us n the case was dismissed. n i was left .. with a sense of guilt ..

まちがったか ..

Blogthings: Boyish/Girlish?

it was shared by -didi- as it caught my attention.

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

Breath 숨 (2007)

i suppose this is a very artistic n deep romance, which i don't quite understand .. he was a convict waiting for his death sentence, she has a husband who cheated on her. she saw him on the television, went to the prison to visit him n they fall in love. eventually he died n she get back to her family. end. *blurred*

Inner-Direction.

another discovery made !!

there's always this contradiction between "girls whom are Inner-Directed" (有主见) versus "girls Without personal thoughts or judgments".

1) most of the times, girls with inner-direction are complained while giving personal "ideas", as it greatly affect the opposite party's pride.
2) at other times, they are critiqued for being too dependent for not having their own thoughts.

the most reasonable ground for such growth in attitude, is because girls nowadays are no more non-educated like the old-days ..

being a leo, i hold onto my own believes n standards. just as i do not judge something, or someone, as "other said so". although external interceptions are not banned, but it definitely took conscious reasoning to persuade me, for i only judge from observation. being educated doesn't mean being unreasonable, does it ??

人間わおもしろいね！

kitty..

another view of the tiger-buddy -ah B- from Sri Aman. there couldn't be another tamer cat than this !! :D

December Boys (2007)

the film was represented in a story telling way, by one of the younger boys (the one in spectacles). although the title "December Boys" include all 4 boys from the orphanage, the story didn't focus on them. it evolves only around Daniel, on how he grow up n "explore" romance. a recommendation if you're daniel's fan.

Chibi: Death Note

Foody Goody Cafe 美食轩

located at Tabuan (Kuching), the Sarawak Laksa here are well-known. the portion are quite small, but definitely enough spicy n muddiness. a recommendation it is.

Iron Man (2008)

an incredible film !! took me on a ride so enjoyable n exciting !! a Huge recommendation if you'd enjoyed Marvel's Fantastic Four, Spiderman, The Hulk, etc. the plot is simple n predictable, it is the way it was presented that makes it so humorous n unique. *whoosh through the sky !!*

Grumpiness.

swamped by anxiousness n insecurity, too abruptly i got trapped in the emotion itself. failed in the mission of seeking for companionship. guess i have myself to blame, for the words never escape my lips. tonight's calmness shall be repainted before it ends ..

希望がまだある !!

kitty..

a new tiger-buddy -ah B- made during the trip to Sri Aman. such a friendly fellow. though both are neutralized (prevent from further breeding), yet -yuki- has such an opposite attitude !! *chuckled*

Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan 撲殺天使ドクロちゃん (2005)

a rather .. weird anime. was attracted because the characters was cute, but .. don't be fooled. *sweat* although the idea was kinda unique, but it got a little annoying after the first 2 episodes, since the same thing keep happening.